Here I am, a mere 95 days before tying the knot, and I have decided that I want to document this time in my life with the love of my life. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, this will eventually be a joint blog, between the future hubby and myself, when ever he can find the time to jump on the bandwagon. :-)
Being only 95 days out I have felt so many emotions that I simply can't explain. I have a fear and a joy and a nervousness and an excitement that never leaves my side. Now having all those emotions constantly running around in your body makes one quite tired, but that could also be contributed to the awful weather we've been having recently. We took our engagement photos on Sunday and it was, oh maybe 35 degrees outside. Now, I'm sure to most people in the country this is perfectly fine weather to be running around downtown in, but I'm from Alabama and anything below 60 is frigid to me. It was alarming how many thoughts and emotions that can hit you unexpectedly while you are holding your future husband, staring into his eyes, and having someone photograph it. I don't think anyone takes enough time just to look at each other. Not talk, just hold each other. And kiss. :-) It was chilling. I can't remember the last time I held Randy and just looked at him. Just took him in. It brought me to tears. All of my fears came to a resolve, and my stress, for a quick moment fled like it was never there in the first place. It finally became real how close the big day is. I know even if the dress doesn't fit right, the flowers look like crap, the food is bad,the cake falls, and something goes completely wrong that Randy will be standing next to me and that's all I need.
I'm ready. Not without fear, but without reservations. I'm ready to walk down the isle. I'm ready to finally, after nearly 5 years, be his wife. He is my best friend. He has been my number one supporter. He has held my hand through my darkest days, and he's been waiting on the other side when I finally find the light again. I know that he is the one set aside for me. I know when I was born, when I was raised, when I grew up, with every choice that I made, and every choice that was made for me, it was all for him. It was all to end up here, at the end of an isle, saying I do, to the one person that was meant to hold my hand for the rest of my life since day one.
<3 The Bride
