Lucky I'm in love

with my best friend. My very very best friend.

I've been saying this a lot recently, and I wish I could have told myself a year ago that this would happen, but I am honestly 100% the happiest I've ever been in my entire life. Baby drama or no baby drama there is not a thing I would change. Wow. I've never been able to say that before. Ever. I feel so at peace, and it is because of the amazing husband I have who supports me 110% in EVERYTHING that I do, the wonderful family I have that shows me more love than I ever knew was possible, and my friends who really, I can't give words to. They are so great. They don't only pick me up when I fall, they drag me forward with my life. This past year has been a world wind. I've felt more ups and downs in one short time that I'm surprised I don't have whiplash. I was a different person a year ago. I was depressed, tired, overwhelmed and just ready to give up on everything and everyone. And I did. And I was miserable. Randy and I split up for 3 months and I learned a lot about myself in that time. I was stronger than I knew, but I was also more cruel and hateful of a person than I'd ever realized I could be. Wow. I never thought of myself as a bad person, but I was. Then on June 10th, on our 5 year anniversary, Randy got down on one knee and gave me the proposal I've always dreamed of, and my life has be completely changed ever since. Not because I nabbed a man, but because I realized, no matter what, I would and will always have someone standing by my side whether I deserve it or not. That day I found a hope that has carried me through every high and every low I've had in the last 7 months. And a month later I became Mrs. Johnson, which I am convinced is the person I was always meant to be. Who I was born to be. I am better for knowing him, but I found me the day I became his wife.

We have had some amazing days this past week. Friday night we went and saw Black Swan and went out for drinks afterwards. Man, that was fun. I don't know how many people can say their husband really is the person they'd choose over everyone else to hang out with, but seriously, my favorite thing in the world is to hang out with my husband. Black Swan was amazing. Very much directed towards a specific audience, but we loved it. I was a wreck the whole time. That movie just made you feel uncomfortable and nervous and on the edge of your seat the whole time. I'd be lying to you if I said I could tell you what happened and what didn't at the end of the movie. It was trippy but man was it inspiring. Applebees was fabulous as well. Let me just say, I don't drink. Ever. I'm not sure why, but it's just not me. The last time I really had a drink was back in May the day before my wedding was suppose to be. Well, Friday I told Ran I'd like to go out and just get a couple of drinks and unwind from the week. I'm all about doing things on a budget and at AB's after 9 appetizers are half price and they have drink specials. Heck yeah! I had a pomegranate long island iced tea, a lemon drop, and boneless wings. I was feeling mighty nice! Long story short, I love dating my husband because he really is my best friend. We have so much more fun together than a married couple should. He makes me laugh, he gets my jokes, and he just flat out makes me happy. He's up there on my top 10 of greatest people ever, right under Oprah and Martha Stewart. ;) I honestly have no greater wish for my friends or my kids than to marry someone who makes you laugh, someone that really is your best friend. Someone that you can have fun with but will also pick you up and carry you when you are at your lowest. Someone who will let you know you are NEVER gonna be alone. I can only hope everyone else gets as lucky as me.

'There comes a time in life when you walk away from all the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad & focus on the good. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of LIFE. Getting back up is LIVING!'