A new path

Randy has really impressed me lately. About a month ago he was failing out of nursing school, he was broken, and beat down, and nothing I said made anything better. He was talking about dropping out this semester and coming back next year. I said no. I told him this was make or break. If nursing school wasn't his path then we needed to stop wasting time with it, but he needed to find his path. He agreed. He went to school and passed his next test. Then his next. Then his next. The drop out date was March 5th. As of March 7th, he just made an 86 on his last test and he is officially passing all his classes! It's all about attitude! He stopped letting himself get down about it and instead did something about it. There is a lesson for me in there somewhere but baby steps, you know.

Today we are taking the steps to 'do something' about our current situation. When Randy gets home from school we are going to the health department and picking up the paperwork for Family Planning. Then we will be setting up and appointment with an OB and start the process for fertility treatments. I am excited, but also very nervous. It makes it real. It's admitting there is a problem. But I truly believe getting answers will help us. We are trying to set our first appointment up for Randy's Spring Break so he can be there and so we don't have to work anything around his schedule and we can get in faster. I think we will be using Dr. Daniels. At this point he is the only OB locally that I am aware of that accepts the Family Planing Program. Eventually I'd like to move over to Dr. Young.

Anyway I just want to ask for everyone's continuing support and prayers as we start down this path. It's not a journey I saw myself on at 23, but I know my purpose on this Earth is to be a mother, and I will use any means necessary to make that happen. I am so thankful for all the love and wisdom we've felt from everyone. I am most thankful for my amazing husband and my Kelly who's unfaltering support has gotten me this far. I am beyond lucky to have 2 people that I know will never judge me when I get mad or when I cry, and who will never tell me what I'm feeling is wrong. They don't try to talk to me about patience or plans or what is meant to be. They just let me feel what I feel and they hold my hand through it until it's better. That's exactly what I've needed and to have 2 people in my life giving me that has been a gift. I love you guys so much.